I haven’t written anything in a while, not here and nor in my sketchbook which I usually use to put down some thoughts when I feel the need to do so. I was busy dealing with some social situations which I’m not used to, so it kinda occupied my world for a while. Trying to organize my life in a totally different direction, because that direction came along by itself and I need to adjust everything according to that new path that I’m about to take. It is a good thing going on, but even if I’m glad about that new twist in my life, I feel kinda scared of the unknown – no, I said it wrong, I’m not scared of the unknown, I have some doubts that I won’t be able to cope with all the new unknown things that are coming my way, and it will happen in very near future and sooner that I can expect. I feel optimistic, I got the chance to form my life completely on my own, like a fresh piece of clay given to you to model something you desire out of it.
My head is raging with ideas and bunch of thoughts twirling inside my skull, the things that I need to do, tasks to finish, people who I need to see, for I’m about to leave everything that I know, everything that I like and dislike, everything that I’m used to, every routine, every face, every sound and every street and replace it with something completely unknown, somewhere far away and not far away at the same time… I feel kinda dizzy of all the planning but this is going to be a good thing, I’m going to make it a good thing…
This sounds like incoherent mumbling, I presume, but when I get my thoughts together, I will write down something that will probably make more sense than this array of random thoughts and sentences. Thank you for reading this.
Now I will enjoy this beautiful sunny day, ’cause my own darkness just stopped pulling me down and I’ll try to clean my head for a change…. 🙂
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